think with yr brains,
feel with yr heart.
dun try to feel with yr brains,
or think with yr heart,
because it's just not right.


im just getting quite + very annoyed with emo ppl. ARGH. spare me please. think with yr brains before deciding whether or not u should follow yr heart. ARGH..


imagine, im a totally rational person. ZERO emos i would say. and yet im trying to "help" ppl. god please inject a dose of emos into me. not too much though.

watched the carabet @ esplanade with my TYS (ten yr sister) ian fun + his classmates last night. ahahas. quite nice eh. hahas. actually i expected myself to be dozing off after 10mins =x. hahas. thanks tys for yr treat!


today - parents went sch to listen to the principal talk, + talked to tang + saadiah. suck big time though. but still. i study for myself, my own future, not to satisfy my parents isnt it? so dumb. and it wasted away my precious saturday morning. i could have slept till 12 lah. irritating. anyway i believe all the teachers tell all the parents the same thing. - 'your son/daughter can do it if they want to or if they work hard for it'. oh please. get a life. and stop talking as though ure a tape recorder. and and and. who says schs doesnt matter. it does. the study culture is diff in diff sch. blame it on my bad decision (more like my parents'.) made for the choice of sch then. i seriously regret not standing up for myself n insist that i dun want to go to a jc. but then again, life is all about making use of what u have, not dwelling over wrong decisions made isnt it. and and and - seriously at the end of the day, it is not the grades/sch/certs that tells all about you. its the amount of money you make and how enjoyable yr life is. so stop forcing me to become a nerd. it just doesnt work for me. if i want to study, i will. get it?

tagboard is still as interesting, n i really think that ppl that come to my blog just come to see my tagboard. hahahas.

my tagboard is ultra interesting now. and yes yes, it doesnt concern me at all! hahahahas. damn lame i know. but so fun lah. shall not interfere then. hahahas.

oh yes yes, i shall start making use of my time moreeeeeeeeeee. and yes, i gotta perservere for another.. 3 months plus before i can say bye to the jc life ( alevels ).

mummy just told me that she went to do facial. diaoz. hahas. and shes trying to jio me to go with her -.-". shes one who nv believed in makeups lah. n now. she became vain all of a sudden. hahahahas. think she wanna look good in anticipation for kor kor's wedding that is coming in... 5 yrs time? ahahahas.

anyway, i had quite a different day today, basically did a lot of thinking n reflection. i guess its time for me to be emotional. and follow my heart. being rational all the time is too tiring.

and yes im going cruise tml! yay! finally i can go into the casino with my mummy legally. hahahas. yes yes im a mummy's girl =)

next we're gonna have a bestie day out on sunday! ser, lao, tingx and zhimin is coming! finally all of us managed to make time for each other =)

i hate to ugly-fy my blog with posts like this. but this time i know i had to.

to sally and longyu, i guess theres always 2 sides of the picture eh? clearly u both are seeing one side. and im seeing the other. i know that. n like what i've told longyu, u both cant understand me. but neither do i understand u both. since thats the case, fine, lets just be classmates. anything wrong? no. longyu agreed to it. despite getting all the coldness from u 2, i tried once, twice, many many times to socialize with u guys as what classmates ought to do, all the way till now. if u think that im a hypocrite by doing that, then fine. coz thats what u think. im like stuck in a pressure cooker all alone. i dunno what else i can do. what else i can say. what else i can clarify. what else i can do to solve such issues. i feel like im pushed to the edge of the cliff. anger is not what i see now. im not trying to gain pity or whatsoever. but think about it. u both have each other. i have nothing but myself. now that im better with the class finally, such things have to happen again. i really dunno what more i can do. please tell me.

this is what im feeling right now. like what i've said, theres always 2 sides. n i bet u cant understand me again; exactly the way i cant understand u both.

today is SRJCian day! gosh the performances were great. esp. the singapore icon / superstar prog. think the 19th batch of student council did a wonderful job! thumbs up! and mdm tang bought us mac breakfast! so generous of her. $82.10. hahas.

anyway, right after that i went home to slp till 3. hahahas. n i went to meet the classmates at around 6. hahahas. but when i reach, all the girls left. in addition, all the girls ponned celebration this morning. so i shall just say i had a great time with 2s23 guys. both morning n evening. ahahahahas. oh yes yes. my pool/billard skills suck totally! need to brush up!

overall, i think i had a great time bonding with the class.. hahaha. we should have more of such outings. hahahas.

did some bouldering in school today =)

realized that a 2 person session at the boulder gym rocks. hahahas. although i think its barely an hour, but i think me n wendy really sweat it all out lah! non-stop-setting-of-new-routes for each other. really fun. and yes to reg(yes yes i know u read my blog! hahas) n wendy(yaya u too! hahas), im on for any leisure climbs(preferably bouldering =x) ! and yes yes the world cup thing. we're so gonna enjoy! hehe. either the time keeper or the score taker! yay!=)

for the first time in my life, im actually ahead of time for maths tutorials =). wad an accomplishment. can u imagine, the old qilin never. NEVER once did her maths tuts. lets hope the drive continues n doesnt end be4 A's. hahahas

tml will be a half day for everyone! yay! (thanks to those a levels listening compre takers! ) 1230 and im done with school! how cool right. im so gonna go out after that. and yes i've already booked my bestie for towning session tml! yay yay yay!

anyway, sch today was as usual, SIANs. except for that saddiah's major PMS, nothing really major happened. lets just say.. endure for another... 4 months minus 1 day. and i'll be officially DONE with JC life. how great! smile ppl, SMILE!

anyway, on a heavier note, we're left with..

43 more days to gp prelims

3 months 13 days to gp alevels

but but but, less than 4 months to END OF ALEVELS!

so, do smile!

and yes yes to those ponners of 2s23 (a vast majority of us! hahas). lets stop ponning all the big days in sch can. i bet no one will go sch on srjcian day n teachers day n the sandcastle on national day @ east coast. hahahahas. u know it'll be our very last yr of such sch events! stop ponning lah! ... ...

wad an irony. im one of the major ponners and here i am trying to convince ppl to stop ponning. HAHAs. anyway i can predict that i will have a tummyache on srjcian day, a headache on teachers day and maybe fever on national day alr. hahahahas. who isnt?

hahas. see, im alr on a christmas mood =x

ok everyone i've fully recovered!

alive n kicking once again!

anyway, my weekend SHALL BE a fruitful one. shall just put aside all the dumb sch stuff for one weekend for rewarding myself for i have survived the exam + illness =)

weight gaining plan is in process, n im back to 41kg. one or 2 more kg to go

shall do some shopping n towning to compensate for the loss of entertainment activities for the past 3 weeks. yea, so i'll be in town! whoohoo!

kor kor finally guaduated from NUS with his second lower class in computer engineering. well. the programme yesterday was really ultra boring, with lotsa photo takings. anyway, we're gonna take the family photo this sunday. muahahaahas

today is another photo shooting session with yunting @ some ulu shop near cityhall. fun fun fun! hahahas. the makeover + hair do was quite stylo milo. oh yes yes, yunting cant follow the instructions given by the cameraman! ahahahas. damn funny. photos will be out in 3 weeks time. hmmm. doubt i'll scan in (ya im lazy) . hahahahas.

this week = photo week!

sick again. ARGH!

if having fevers will decrease yr lifespan, im seriously dead by now.

whats more, mcs have lost their meaning for me. MCs. for what sia. irritating. maybe i should not see any doc when im sick ever again. just rot at home. either i rot n die ( quite sad, but, thats up to nature's will isnt it.) or i rot n recover ( n build up my immune system). cool right. yay. i shall do that.

have alr flunked econs p1 p2 and maths p2 today. all thanks to the damn high fever + flu + cough + throat + the-pair-of-parents-who-refuse-to-not-let-me-go-to-sch-when-im-on-3-days-mc. damn. ARGH.

anyway let me teach u guys something. paracetamol of any kind (for eg. panadol) or ibuprofen(a stronger kind of medicine) are just pain relievers. they just ease yr fever or whatever pain for a few hours and thats it, ure back to yr fever. so stop asking me if my fever have subsided coz even if it does, it is just on the surface. get it? stop touching my forehead n say that i've recovered. its super irritating. SUPER.

and yes. irritatingly. i lost all my appetite. i rather not eat anything now. ewwwwwwkkkkk.

presented to you by,
the sick n grouchy qilin.

seriously i dunno what im thinking..

firstly, i can just delete all the spams n ban those ppl from tagging my tag, like within a few clicks. secondly i dun really feel like finding out who is behind all these - since if its my friend(s) [or thought-to-be-friends], i'll be disappointed. n if its not my friend(s), then y bother.

so many reasons for me to click that few (delete) n (ban) buttons on cbox. but then again. im just curious as to find out what all these will lead to.


hahahas. anyway today's night out with MISS LIM (sec4 chem teacher), christina n laolao was soooooooooooooooooooo cool! i mean i really enjoyed the lil get together time. after 2 yrs eh. hahahas. all the juicy gossips, both about the teachers n the students. hahahas. so nice to have such nice gatherings. u guys really made my day =)