days after days.
weeks after weeks.
months after months.
years after years.
maybe decades after decades and even centuries after centuries.
sometimes things just doesn't change.
history always repeats itself.
and people always make the same mistakes in life.
the mistake of believing, trusting and expecting that this time round things would be different.
when will i finally learn. finally learn and apply the true meaning of having zero expectations on everything. every single thing in life so that i wouldnt have the chance to feel the slightest touch of disappointment.
and when i finally reach that state, will i truly be happier. or will i just lose away that last bit of humanity in me.

dun judge me. and dun say that im emo. coz im not. im merely stating down what's on my mind. to remind myself over and over again so that i wouldn't make the same mistake in life ever again, even though i know there's this dumb side of me that will always always always psycho myself to make believe again.

expectations are meant to be unmet. promises are meant to be broken. trust are meant to be breached.
and i know i will never be able to fully trust anyone. or anything. not even myself.
and thank you. you and you and you. the many yous. for making me a stronger me.

and let me warn you. and you and you and the many yous out there. do not. do not and do not attempt to ask me anything coz i'll get really frustrated. i do not need all the stupid crap of 'are u ok' or 'whats wrong' or 'are things alright'. i swear i'll be mad at anyone who ask me about anything on this.